I personally can only take so much in this lifetime. I have been through so much, as a child was enough but here at 48 I am personally done! Your alcoholism has taken a toll not on you but me also and I wish you would finally hit bottom and get help. I wish you would recognize there is a serious problem here. You have been sick on and off for two months and missing work at a great job and not seeing this. You have just been arrested for a DUI on your way to work extra hours on a Saturday. Do you not see this as a problem? You said you would help me and care for me a bit. I am in renal failure and scared to death. We have known each other for over 5 years and have been through thick and thin. Mostly with my health and finances, God has blessed above and beyond. Can you not see He is there for you giving you a hundred chances? He always does for us on this earth. But it is Satan that is taking you down deeper with him. You see Satan will make you dig deeper so when you are at your bottom you will never know and not be able to crawl back up. That is how evil works but that is now how good and love does. Please go for the good and love of God. You are killing me inside and out. I am barely surviving on my own when you are not at home for me to deal with regular everyday life. I need you to be at your regular self to survive what is left with my life. Please I beg you to hang on and dig yourself up from this bottom part of your life to God and get help, change your way of being, not for but for yourself overall. I need that for you. Just for you and for you alone.